Fast FWD to the present....

So, it has now been 7+ years and we are finally at the point that we feel like God wants us to try and pursue this further with a doctor bc everything we are doing has not worked and we need answers. I called my insurance to see what is covered. I made an appointment and Jason went with me.

After seeing the Fertility Specialist she told us several options but made us aware that since has been over 5 years of trying that there is definitely a problem somewhere and they need to find out that it is. She told me my options and said Jason's was just a simple Semen analysis. She told me that since his count was low last time and even though he already has a daughter they would like to re-check him again. See Jason was born with undescended testicles and had surgery when he was 8, but she said a lot of men who were born with this had infertility issues. She said if it is male infertility then they wouldn't need to test me for anything and the next step could possibly be In Vitro Fertilization is commonly referred to as IVF. (IVF is the process of fertilization by manually combining an egg and sperm in a laboratory dish. When the IVF procedure is successful, the process is combined with a procedure known as embryo transfer, which is used to physically place the embryo in the uterus).

But it there was also another smaller procedure called Intrauterine insemination (IUI is a procedure which involves placing sperm inside a woman’s uterus to facilitate fertilization.

So, we scheduled Jason an appt to make another "deposit" since his was going to be easiest at this time.

We got a call a few days later letting is know that all the things they test for with the semen analysis came back abnormal. She sd they could try and IUI but the percentage rate of woman who get pregnant is about 7%. Or we could try IVF and that percentage of woman who get pregnant is about 70%.

She told us to think about it and get back to her.




Jason and I decided to talk to our old Pastor about the situation and he advised us to pray for Wisdom from God. We are struggling with the IVF bc we are against abortion and we feel like making about bunch of embryo and deposing of the ones we don't want would be abortion bc its a little baby. I know everyone may not agree with this but this is what Jason and I believe so If we chose IVF we would only have them make the amount we would want inserted into me. The other thing is what if I got pregnant with all the babies they inserted inside me. I would raise them of course but I am not sure I want more than 2. I mean if God wants me to have 5 or more or less I would be blessed bc thats Gods will, but I am not sure about raising a lot of kids at one time.  So, we also talked a little about adoption. I feel as though we are leaning a little more towards that. But....only time will tell.




I will continue to keep everyone updated on what we decide. Thanks for reading or blog.

This helps me to not have to keep re-telling the story over & over again to different people. Plus it helps to talk about it.


Also....Please Pray for Jason and I in this huge stepping stone in our life.

Fall of 2007

I remember this day like it was yesterday. By this point I was really concerned inside, bc I didn't have a baby yet. Jason couldn't really read my emotions bc to him it seemed like 1 day I would want a baby and the next I didn't. This was all part of being frustrated. Anyway....so, Jason came into the kitchen at our old house and he was so excited and kept saying Guess who is pregnant, I said who and he said Crissy. I felt like I had been slapped in the face and I became so angry. I was angry bc I felt like everyone was getting pregnant but me. I was angry bc it wasn't me. I was angry bc Jason was so excited and didn't even think about how I would react and I didn't even know I would react that way. I was angry bc I didn't understand why. This was a huge Wake up call to me and Jason.


This was the day I actually gave all the baby worry over to God. I started to feel a peace come over me that God will take care of everything on his timing not mine and Jasons. Once this peace came over me I wasn't angry anymore. & yes I was super excited for my wonderful sister- in-law & Brother-in-law :)

About a month later....
My sister aka fertile Myrtle became pregnant with her 2nd child right after that and she didn't want to tell me in fear of how It would effect me so she had Jason figure out the best way to break the news.
He sat me on our bed and told me he had to tell me something really important and he broke the news. I felt nothing but peace. It is amazing how God gives you that peace when you trust in him.


*Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through him who strengthens me.*



I also spoke with a fellow Christian friend who had been having some problems getting pregnant in the past and they decided to adopt and then she became pregnant once the adopted baby was home. She gave me the best advice. She said instead of focusing on having a baby that Jason and I need to focus on each other and have fun because once a baby comes everything changes. So, this is what we did.

Summer 2006

I am not sure of the exact date but this was my 1st real emotion about not getting pregnant. This was the day we found out that Aidan's (my step-daughter) mom was pregnant. I was really happy but really sad. I remember crying for a little but then that passed.

Spring 2005

So...It has now been a little over a year and still no baby :( So, I start asking my OBGYN about looking into what the problem may be. She wanted to run some hormone test to make sure my levels were normal. Those test came back normal. She then wanted to have me get a hysterosalpingogram aka HSG(an X-ray test that looks at the inside of the uterus and fallopian tubes and the area around them) to make sure there was no blockage. So, I had heard that my uterus was tilted and to the left  but its was wild to actually see it on the monitor. It didn't look anything like I had remembered from the text books. With that being said it was really hard for them to see the dye come out of the left fallopian tube. The dye came right out of the right tube. The Doctor said just because he didn't see the dye doesn't mean it didn't come out and that also doesn't mean I won't get pregnant if it is blocked bc lots of women get pregnant with just 1 fallopian tube. I remember them telling me to have a lot of sex because once this test is done sometimes woman get pregnant because the tubes are so cleaned out. Yeah well, no baby :(
So, the next step was to have Jason checked. Jason went and made his "deposit" and his test results showed that he had a low count and that was it. So, we decided to just continue to let nature take it course. I had started to become really frustrated off and on by this point. Some months we would "really" try and others we wouldn't.  

Nov. 5, 2003

Today is mine & Jasons 1 year "dating" anniversary and he took me to Maggiano's Little Italy. At this point we have been married a little over 6 months and the talk of babies has definitely been part of my vocabulary. Not so much Jasons. So we sat down and ate a great meal and he told me he needed to tell me something in the middle of our dinner. So....He told me that we can try & have a baby :) I was super excited!! So, bye bye Birth Control.