Why?!?!

So.... Here I am again having baby fever and wondering why us? Why does it have to be this complicated and why do we have to spend SO much money to do whatever we decided! I know my blog is like a roller coaster but like I stated b4 I go through so many emotions and I will be fine one minute with no baby then the next thing I know I have baby fever AGAIN. It's feels better to write it all out and I know God has a plan but it's just frustrating waiting to see what that plan is. We do have lots of people praying for us and we are so thankful!!! I will cont to keep y'all posted

It's been a while since I have updated......

Sooooooo...Do you remember back in one of my old blogs I stated that all this has been kinda like a "roller coaster ride" with emotions..

Well, Right after my latest blog We prayed about this for a while with what to do and at this point we feel like IVF isn't the best things for us right now. I do want a baby but at this point I am scared of what all those hormones will do to my body. Does it sound selfish??? Maybe, but its my body. I told Jason the other day..If its the Lords Will for s to have a baby we will and watch me get pregnant when I am like 38 or 40 when I least expect it. I will be perfectly fine with that because for whatever reason God wanted me to have a baby then...and if not then Maybe Jason & I just arent suppose to have a baby...So, for now we will have fun loving everyone else's kids and sending them back home to their parents.

2nd Consultation with Infertility Specialist

So, we had our appt at 10am this morning & the Dr. answered all of our many questions. One of the most important questions was cost. He told us that it would cost between $12-$14k for IVF and they do not have payment plans. He said if we can come up with the money by April, we can start as early as May. But, how are we going to get that much money? I know we can get loans and things like that, but I really cant imagine this round not taking & us paying for something we dont have for the next 5 years. That is like buying a car but being unsure if the car is going to work when you drive it home. Well, my insurance doesn't seem to cover that much but I don't have exact figures yet either. The funny thing is, is that Jason just dropped me from his insurance during his open enrollment last year right before we started talking about trying to find out why we cant have a baby. He is almost positive his covered 50% of IVF. He is going to call tomorrow to double check that. One of our biggest issues with IVF in the beginning was paying that much money and the chance it might not take. This is one of the reasons we were leaning towards Adoption. We want to be good stewards of our money that God blesses us with each month. So...if this is correct and Jason's insurance covers 50% we may be waiting until this time next year to actually start the process and use this year to save up for the difference. I feel a peace about this. We have prayed for God to make it very clear what we are suppose to do & what paths to take. The Dr. did tell us it is still only a 50% chance with IVF but he did say that with my good health, not being overweight, not smoking, & only having the occasional glass of wine makes me a better candidate. He also said we could try and IUI with Jasons sperm but its only a 5% chance it will take and it cost about $300. Then he also mentioned a donor Sperm IUI, its a 15%-20% chance it will take & cost about $600. I think we are pretty much sticking to the IVF.





Once again thanks for all the prayers, comments, messages, & calls.

Excited to see what 2011 brings. Praise God :)

So, we have been giving this IVF a little more thought. We have been praying for God to let us know exactly what we should do and I feel like at this point we should get more info on IVF because I would hate for us to not try for our own baby. I feel like we should atleast try and if it doesn't work out then maybe that is Gods way of telling us we aren't suppose to have our "own" baby. Who knows...
I did however find out this past Monday by watching a Video on IVF from the Doctors office that they would only place 2 Embryos in me so that means we would just be at risk of twins and that is fine by me. I did have a friend make a good point to me through an email. She said that I am only giving God 95% and that I need to give the other 5% and trust that he will take care of everything. So, that is what I am going to do. I didn't think of it that way until she said it. We have an appt next Tues with the Dr for more IVF info as far as cost and stuff like that. Then we have a meeting at our home Church back in Clayton Next Sunday to get more info on Adoption. We still want to get all the info on everything. Please cont. to pray for us. I have my days, but God is keeping us strong. We are super excited to see what The Lord has in store for us in 2011.

Thank you so much for all the comments on Facebook and emails, messages, & Phone calls. They mean so much and it is so nice to know people are praying for us & that we have such a huge support system.